Part One:
What do you do when life throws you a curve ball? A curve ball called cancer just came my way and It’s my intention to hit a homerun.
Yes, the “C” word has entered my life when I had no idea it would ever be a part of my world. Now it is. There have been emotional moments and strong moments believing I can beat this ugly thing. There are options to consider and moments to take in evaluating and re-evaluating what treatment to do. I have now entered the world of Dr. appointments, biopsies and discussions.
The hardest part is to not let myself sink into a world of misery, pain and pity. I want to be fully present with this journey to allow myself to experience the confusion, pain, treatment, and if it comes down to it, perhaps surgery. I want to give my all into it. I want to let myself feel the emotion of it all. Sometimes it’s overwhelming, sometimes it’s not. I have experienced anxiety like I never have before, high blood pressure and a range of emotions.
The best thing I can do for myself right now is to remain centered, fully present, breathing deeply and have a place of peace in myself as I go on this journey. Am I afraid? Yes and no. The medical field has made too many advancements in today’s age for this not to have a positive outcome. But there is that little fear of ‘what if it comes back’ thought that runs around in my head.
I intend to fight this naturally, immersing myself into building my immune system naturally with the help of a Naturopathic expert, but also being open to medical opinions. Just a note: I do not believe the medical world is not all bad. Is it money driven? Of course, it is. But so is the insurance world, the corporate world of any kind, dentistry, even some religious organizations are all money driven and so many more.
I have always been a person that would leave myself behind and give everything I had to making sure everyone else was comfortable and taken care of. Well, now it’s my turn. I am surrounded by so much love, attention and support from friends and family. If you are battling cancer, I hope you have the same.
So, this is just a brief encouragement to me, but also to anyone else out there in the cancer world. Keep holding on…love yourself, accept the situation and be fully present with yourself and others walking with you through this journey. The curve ball may have caught you by surprise, but it’s not too late to swing and hit a home run and take your time walking around the bases!
Here’s to a present and peaceful journey!
Freely Authentic 